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To One and All... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The poems in the following * POEMS20.HTM * file have been arranged in the order they have been written. The depth and nature of the poems therefore indicate the changes the author experienced during the time they were produced. There are more than 540 poems and the quality between the first ones and the last ones is remarkable! Many of the poems practically wrote themselves and all I had to do was sit still long enough for them to come through. At the time I was totally amazed where they all came from. Often I thought that I had become that good all of a sudden. This naturally is not so, for all I did was function as an instrument or channel of the Soul I really am. I hope that many of these poems speak to the Soul you are, and if so; they really come from you! The poems in all their "simplicity and profoundness" form a course in metaphysics just by themselves. It is possible therefore to go through them one by one, and learn more than by reading a stack of books. The poems in these files are aspects of my Higher Self and with great pleasure do I hereby dedicate them: - To the World of Man and his Infinite Endeavours - Only because of the steady performance of my Benefactors have my poems been realized. Humbly I acknowledge the great changes and growth that took place within me in the years 1979 to 1984. Sincerely yours, Gerardus Everardus Tros -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- COULD EVER START ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Am I... the Battlefield of Devils? Am I... the Sinning-Ground of Evil-Beasts? Am I... the Producer... of Slime... for Satan's Feasts? Or am I God... in Glorious Power? Am I a God... embodied in but Human Flesh. To pure awaken to my Greatness by living Life in Humanness? Yes... I am God... in Soul and Spirit. Yes... I am God in Mind and Heart. To tell the World in Blinded Bondage that God and Man are but ONE Part. And not one Devil or its Evil was ever there could ever start. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20434-1982 TO LOVE AND LOVE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the Eons and Eons... that I have been I was fat and round... and seldom lean. I was dense and dumb... and often green I was tall and short... and sometimes mean. I was Man and Wife... with fun and strife I was Brother and Sister... with a Dame and a Mister. And often I was just prissy and pure While many a time I was full of Manure. But whatever I was... either Girl or Boy I experienced Life... with Pain and Joy. And now that I have seen the World and the Clean I work and work to surmount the Scene. To try and try to leave the "I" To fly and fly beyond the Sky. To soar above the World I love To soar above TO LOVE AND LOVE. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20435-1982 A LOVER ~~~~~~~ Perfection is as simple as a Smile upon your Face. Enlightening... the Heart that loves you. And knows that all smiles come from the Light you are. Shining forth from your Eyes that look upon your Lover. Trying to be himself. And as Happy... as the Light... within your Eyes. The Light that reflects... what you are. A God in Love... and loving... A Lover. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20436-1982 YOU ARE GOD ~~~~~~~~~~~ To find God... is Impossible. For how can you find... what you already are. But to BE God... and KNOW it... there is but one thing to do. Which is... to Awaken to your own Godness. To awaken to your own Godness... is but a matter of Time and Living. And Living... is doing what you feel like. Doing what you feel like... is going... with the Flow of the Universe. Which is you anyway. And to live and do what you don't feel like... is going against your own Flow. Which retards and delays... your own Enlightenment. Which is... the Knowing of the Fact that YOU ARE GOD. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20437-1982 LET ALONE YOU ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Since the Universe is in perfect Balance at all times it is impossible for you to do something wrong. For if you could do wrong the Universe would do wrong. And that is Impossible. SO... Whatever you do... you do exactly what you should do. For if you didn't... the Universe is wacky. And that ain't so. The point is... that it is perfectly normal to make mistakes while you're learning. For that's the reason why you live here. As part of the Universe... as part of God. However... in and by itself... whatever you do sometimes might be wrong. But to think that you do wrong... is Nonsense. So... Whatever you do you do it Right. The Universe is never Wrong. Let alone You. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20438-1982 LIKE JESUS DID ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Since you have been told again and again that you are a Sinner you think you are one. And in order to be forgiven you go and ask the ones who told you. On top of all this you go... and sin again. And every time... you feel sorry for yourself and never improve. In the long run... you get used to being a Sinner. And even might go to Hell... Wherever that is. Religions... my dear Lover... are The Anti-Christ. Religions condition People. Religions make People believe or think that they are Sinners. And that is about as Negative... as you can get. Please KNOW... that you are a Learning Entity or Soul living in a Human Body to experience the Plane of Earth. You are here to experience... your own Creation... as part of Creation. The Purpose is... to awaken to your own Christhood... like Jesus did. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20439-1982 TO COME YET ONCE MY WAY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dark Eyed... in Glowing Beauty... of Youth... and smiling Face... I come and see... and silently wonder... I see the Miracle of Space. For Women... in all their Splendor I watch and stand in Awe. To slowly wander homeward... not knowing... what I saw. While in my Mind I question my age and silent pain... for all my Smiles and Glances are absolutely in vain. For through the years... of living I grew but old and grey. To sit and wait for Miracles to come yet once my way. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20440-1982 THE SHOW OF NONSENSE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ When I have lived this Life and know that the Answer I am... is still within me I'll die in peace... and smiling. For the next time I'll be with you I'll know that some Book... some Teacher... or some Lover... will tell me that the Answer is still there. Slightly less covered... and more open... to the God I am. I will see again then the utter uselessness of Ego and the World of Man. I'll continue on my Path Within Myself and deeper still. To find the Secret of my Living. To lose the self I think I am. For by every Life... and by every Experience I will be enriched... with Insight and Grace of the God I am discovering itself. By Living Life among Man and his World. The 'merry-go-round' of Egos. The Stage of Selves. The Show of Nonsense. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20441-1982 TO BE IN FEELING ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ When a Poet... poets... he touches the Vastness of his Being. The Vastness of his God within. He dwells then... within the Heart of Heaven. The Heart that is beyond Time... beyond Space. And reveals the Sacredness of the God he does not know. This is the Sphere... untouchable to the ordinary man... hidden within the masses. Yet... the Poet's Dimension is not even known to the Poet. Who neither is himself... nor his Greatness. And what the Poet writes... is the Universe in Words... that few but read and fewer yet do understand. That's why he is alone. Alone with his Greatness... the Vibration of the Heart of God. The heart he feels... and is writes about... but never can explain ever. The Heart that is God's Alone. Yet Free to All... to be in Feeling. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20442-1982 BUT FOR THE LISTENING ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I sing out into the Universe... the Language of the Spheres. Many have done so in the Past... many do now... and many will in the Future. The Language of these Songs is not bound by Time and Space. But is of the Here and Now. And yet it is the same as it always was. It is just... that I sing now... My Song with Words and Melody according to the Tune I am. Like others did... at their Time of Singing. And also... my Song is nothing new. For many have chanted the same Lyrics. But so few... so very few... have understood the Poetry that passed their Ears. That's why again and again... the Singers ring out the same old Cry. In the Hope that the Heart of Man is finally in Rhythm with the Music of the Spheres and the Heart of God. The Heart of God... the Heart of Life... that always beats... but for the Listening. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20443-1982 LIKE YOU AND I ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ As much as each Letter belongs to each Word and as much as each Word belongs to each Poem to make it a Song... so do You and I belong to the Universe to make it a Celebration. A Celebration of Eternal Duration. With Laughter and Tears. Like a Play... with Plays within Plays. Written by Wisdom and played by Man. In which all Mankind is but one Action. And Poetry Alive. With lilting Laughter... and Tears that are Real. With Lines... of neither Rhyme... nor Reason. With Words that belong... like You and I. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20444-1982 BEING US... BEING GOD ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ God is like Air... God is like Wind... God is like a Summer Breeze... God is like a Storm... and Lightning. God is like Anything... and at the same time... God is Everything. God is All There Is. God is YOU... God is ME... GOD is Man. And YOU... and ME... and Man... are God. God is Consciousness. YOU are Consciousness. Consciousness is All There Is. Consciousness creates. Consciousness created... something... that is equal to Consciousness. Man calls it Matter. Matter is trapped Consciousness. Matter is Consciousness of a slower Vibration. When Matter awakens to itself it recognizes that it is Consciousness. Consciousness is Energy... that is aware of itself... as itself... and knows it's Potential. In order for Consciousness in the Form of Matter to become free Consciousness again it lives within the Planes of Matter... it lives within its own Creation. It lives within YOU. It lives within ME. It lives within Man. Being US... being God. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20445-1982 YOU WERE ONCE MINE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ So Confident and Super-Fast... that's how I know you... from the Past. For in the Times that have gone by we were great Lovers just You and I. With Movements Sweet and light as Air we were a Laughing... Loving Pair. And lived our Life with Light Divine our Hearts held high our Souls in shine. And now... that we find again our Souls in Flesh... I'm just too old... and you're still fresh. But live on... my Child Divine... and please forget... You were once Mine. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20446-1982 WHAT BLINDNESS I STILL AM ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I've heard the Wind raging at Night and the Sea hammering the rocky Shore. I've felt the Rain soaking me to the Bone and the Cold of Winter freezing me to shivers. And in the Heat of Summer... the Lightning of the Storms do blind me. What is ALL this... I see and feel? What is this Power... Man calls Nature? For ALL I see... and ALL I feel happens in the Consciousness I am. Or could it be... that the Consciousness... I think I am... really is God's? Or that I... - being a Witness - am aware of it... because... I am the same Consciousness? Could it be... that what I witness is the Power of my Godness and do not know it? Could it be... that THAT Greatness is present within me to witness its own Greatness? What Greatness I must be... What Greatness I do witness... What Blindness I still am. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20447-1982 OR SIMPLY... GOD. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Because of all my Journeys in which I lived and struggled I finally found my Path. Not that my Path is Clear and Self-revealing far from it. But it is a Path. A Path which I know will lead me to The Light. To The Light I am from and will return. Because I am the Same. The same Light that is in all Others. Known or Unknown. What I will meet upon my Path... I do not know. However... whatever it is... I will surmount it. For I am The Light. The Light of Consciousness. The Light of the Infinite Soul... called... The Buddhi The Christ or simply... GOD. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20448-1982 THE WRITING IS BUT ME ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I do no Miracles... I just write... and write. And also... I do not even shine. I just live and live. And while I'm living... I notice... I experience... And I feel. I feel... that what I do... is The Miracle. For how could I... do anything if it was not for The Miracle I am. Being Me... writing. And to You... to You who read my Writing I say please forgive me forgive me for the Writing I do and the Mistakes I make. For what I hear and feel is Perfect... but put in Words... the Writing is but me. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20449-1982 A CLUE FOR YOU ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ To write a Poem... I would not dare for I am a Spook... and very rare. Yet I can think... and feel... and cry... and sometimes write... but often lie. For Truth my Friend... I have not found for me it seemed... just too profound. But I know now... without a Doubt that where You are... it is about. Just look around... with open Eye and search for Truth in Earth and Sky. For while You're there... You're bound to find the Truth I missed... and left behind. And while I sleep and dream of Earth I wait and wait... for newest Birth. For the time before... I missed by far by playing... but an Ego-Star. Thinking that this Body-Me... was all there ever just could be. While in Reality my Friend... I am pure God... from Start to End. And when I come to Earth again... for Truth I'll look... right there and then. For right now... I'm too darn spooky... because on Earth... I just played hooky. But the next time... I am in Flesh I must correct this sorry mess. And just in case... this Poem is True... let it then be... a clue for you. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20450-1982 CANNOT STEER ~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am the Garment of my Soul to be discarded of my Role within the Twinkling of an Eye when IT ascends to Higher Sky. Thus I... as Earth and Garment-Tool am nothing but a bloody Fool. For I still think... and feel... and cry... that I am I... that I am I. Yet... if it wasn't... for my Pain and Vain... my Soul would never... Gain or Reign. That's why... I try and try to let my I-ness die and die. For as long as I dwell still right here my Soul as Pilot cannot steer. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20451-1982 EAT FROM THE TREE... CALLED LOVE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A Buddhist will never be... A Buddha. And a Christian will never be... A Christ. Yet many strive to become - that what they must - by following some kind of religion. Nobody will ever make it by following. For a Buddha or a Christ... is an Initiator and a Rebel. To develop the guts... to become an Initiator or a Rebel takes the Confidence of a God and the Individuality of a Creator. And none of these Characteristics are developed by following. The only way to become ONE... is to be Yourself. To be yourself... is to live in the Moment of Nowness as a New Person in a World that is old. So be like an Adam or Eve and eat from All Trees to your Satisfaction. But most of All... Eat from the Tree... called Love. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20452-1982 BY DYING TO OUR SELFNESS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Movements of the Body... and the Thoughts of the Mind... are only temporary Commotions. And useless to Man. They are like Nonsense... to a Book... that contains it. Not even worth a Laugh. For the Movements of the Body and the Thoughts of the Mind are but 'outer' phenomena of the Consciousness that creates them. To find this Consciousness we have to go deeper than Movements deeper than Thoughts. Beyond all 'outer' phenomena. There where we cannot reach is the Consciousness... We Are. Hidden beyond the 'outer'... producing what we experience in Movements and in Thoughts. Hidden beyond the 'outer' is the Consciousness of the God We Are. And we can only find... by Dying to our Selfness. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20453-1982 AND MISS HIS WILL ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Slumbering within Man and Soul sleeps the God to grow One Whole from the Burden that Man but is to fashion Glory and pure Bliss. While Bodies... Forms... and a thousand Faces are lost in Time by a Thousand Races. While Lands and Seas change Place and Sky While Life and Death just pass on by. And not one Child - how far on out - this Growing God will leave in Doubt. For not one man... - how lonesome still - is left alone... and miss His Will. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20454-1982 MY WAY ~~~~~~ Nobody but God looks out of my Eyes. Nobody but God thinks my Thoughts. Nobody but God loves my Lovers. Thus the 'I'... I feel I am is an Illusion that stands in my way... of being God the Looker God the Thinker and God the Lover. But since God is busy being 'All That Is'... I took the Liberty... to write all this. For as far as I know if I would leave it up to God nothing ever would get done. Yet... I realize... that I really cannot do anything. For God does it ALL. MY WAY. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 20455-1982