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    To One and All...
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
    The poems in the following * POEMS19.HTM * file have been arranged
    in the order they have been written.   The depth and nature of the
    poems therefore indicate the changes the author experienced during
    the time they were produced. There are more than 540 poems and the
    quality between the first ones and the last ones is remarkable!

    Many of the poems practically wrote themselves and all I had to do
    was sit still long enough for them to come through.  At the time I
    was totally amazed where they all came from.  Often I thought that
    I had become that good all of a sudden.  This naturally is not so,
    for all I did was function as an instrument or channel of the Soul
    I really am. I hope that many of these poems speak to the Soul you
    are, and if so; they really come from you!

    The poems in all their "simplicity and profoundness" form a course
    in metaphysics just by themselves.  It is possible therefore to go
    through them one by one, and learn more than by reading a stack of
    books.  The poems in these files are aspects of my Higher Self and
    with great pleasure do I hereby dedicate them:
           - To the World of Man and his Infinite Endeavours -

     Only because of the steady performance of my Benefactors have my
     poems been realized.  Humbly I acknowledge the great changes and
     growth that took place within me in the years 1979 to 1984.

                            Sincerely yours,
                                         Gerardus Everardus Tros

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                 TO FIND THAT YOURS... ARE REALLY MINE
                 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Open Eyed... and open Minded...
                             she is a Soul...
                                  that shines in Dust.

               Quite alert...
                         and somewhat driven
                                    she always thinks...
                                             she must and must.

         With Confidence and 'Super-Sport'
                         she floats through Life
                                   that seems too short.

               And in Ages of Years that past
                        she was a Form of different Cast.
               She was herself... in Life and Lustre...
                            a Lovely Maiden... or Broncobuster.

               Yes... she was there.
                            And so was I...
                                    talking...
                                       telling...
                                          on Tea or Rye.

         For Life 'Dear Eyes'... is lived in Mind
                    while Form or Shape is but its Grind.
               And the Lessons of this Earth's Domain
                            are Self-Designed to bring us Gain.

         To finally flee from Dust and Man
                           to God and Planes... we cannot scan.

             Where we will meet... with Eyes Divine...
                    to find that yours... are really mine.

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                              18413-1982






                       THAT LIVES THE MAN WITHIN
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

       Everybody on Earth... is on a different Trip.
                  Yet... everybody is looking for the same thing.
          And until we find it... we act like deluded Fools.

       We are deluded by the Earth... and by the Man within
                                    that 'thinks ' to be himself.

       Many and many times... we have made this Trip.
                           In different Forms and to many Places.

                Whatever we do... and wherever we go...
                     it all leads to nothing else
               but the Re-enforcement of the Man within.
                                       The Man that is not there.

       Yet... again and again this Man arises.
                     With new Thoughts... and new Ideas...
                                                 to search again.

               All Thoughts and Ideas however...
                         are but arbitrary Illusions...
                                 of the 'Illusionary Man' within.

               And no Illusion ever will be 'The Real'.

                          And until we find 'The Real'...
                                                   we suffer
                                                and call it Life.

       But eventually we will understand
                                  that each Trip
                         was but an 'Act of Self-Defense'
                     to affirm the Dreamer and his Illusions.

               An 'Act of Self-Defense'...
                              to be surrendered to 'The Real'.
                      The All Pervading Force...
                                       that lives the Man within.

                     -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              19414-1982






                            WITHOUT A DOUBT
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Silently she comes
                   while I dream and write.
                                   And she lets me.
                                         Touching me invisibly.

                   She is herself...
                             breathing me.
                                      Patiently.

                   By being me...
                             in writing...
                                      she waits.

         And in my Dream I feel her Presence shining.
                                                 Lovingly.
                   I feel embraced
                        by a Sphere of Light
                               as from a million Candles.
                                           Like a Glow of Love.

               She surrounds the Thoughts I dream
                                             and write.
                                                  Smilingly.

         And I but dream and write
                the Lines of Words a'tumbling.
                         She then slowly reads my Dream...
                                                    and dreams.

               Knowing that all is well.
                         For Love is Present...
                                  without a Word...
                                         without a Doubt.

                     -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              19415-1982






                                TALKING
                                ~~~~~~~

         I am a Great Talker.
                   However... I do not know anything.
                                    I only know
                                    something about something.

         And all in all...
                  even that does not amount
                                        to very much.

                         But if you want to talk...
                                        well... I am game.

               I mainly talk...
                      about Subjects other People...
                                         are very quiet about.

                         The Subject is LIFE.

         And although I have lived many Lives
                    I cannot consciously remember One of them.
                           Yet... I am all of them NOW.

               And in the Nowness I live
                   I do not know  'who' or 'what' I really am.

                   But one thing is for sure.
                             Whatever it is I am...
                                          is being lived.

               Being lived...
                     sustained...
                        and acted upon to make me 'The One'
                                                      that IS.

                     God living.
                          In Me and through Me.

                                            Talking.

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                              19416-1982






                                PLAYING
                                ~~~~~~~

         Only when your work
                   has become play
                             will you be happy.

              But as long as your work
                                    is work
                        you will need Time and Money
                                      to get away from it all.

                             And do...
                                 what you call play.

              To do this however...
                            you need to work.

         But somehow work has become so time consuming
                       that there is little time left to play.

              So most of the time...
                         you just grumble along
                                      to do your work
                                             in order to play.

         Life however is too short
              to spend your time grumbling about work.

              So... why don't you change your work
                                            into play
                                                 and be happy.

         To do this...
              you only have to change your attitude.
                               And that is all that is needed.

              For your attitude
                            makes you the player at work.

                                                      Playing.

                     -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              19417-1982






                            MAKES ME FORGET
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                That... what I am... I am Alone.
                                           In Aloneness.

         Yet... in that what I am...
                            I am All Others.

                            But in my Aloneness...
                                            I do not know that.

         For only when I have found
                            that I am not alone
                                     I will know that I am All.

               To do this however...
                   will take me many Periods of Aloneness...
                                    in being just me the Loner.

               Sooner or later though
                         within that what I am
                                   I will find the Total.

               While now... the total I am
                         is but dreaming that I am alone.

         For in all my Dreams...
                        I create the Illusions of my Aloneness.

                 The Illusions I suffer...
                                  in the Lives I live.

         For that what I really am...
                             beyond my Dreams...
                                            is THAT
                                       what I am all along.
                                                           GOD.

                But being Man for a while...
                                       makes me forget.

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                              19418-1982






                        THEN THERE IS ONLY VIEW
                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         To disagree with Someone else
                     is like a Tree disagreeing with the Earth.

                     To not see the other Point of View
                          is limiting yourself but to yourself.
         Never though...
              just agree to please the Other.
                   Just admit that you are too small
                                to 'see' the Other's Viewpoint.

         For neither you... nor the Other...
                        is either Right or Wrong.
                                    There is no Right or Wrong.

         It is just that many of us are looking
                                from our Own Spot of Smallness.

             We see Differences...
                              because of our Limitations.

             But in actuality All of Us... are the Other.

         To 'see' that this is so...
                     just open up your Mind...
                          to the Feeling Being you are.
                                Just open up your Feeling Mind.

          Many People are looking from the Angle of Selfness.
                  The smallest Angle in the Universe.

              From which nothing can be seen...
                      but the Smallness of a Closed-Mind.

         Once you know...
                that Each of Us  are  All of Us...
                        all Disagreements and Angles disappear.

                        Then there is only VIEW.

                     -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              19419-1982






                           OF WHY... OH WHY
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Yes...
            oh my Janet...
                     so Subtle and Deep
                          with Tears of Treasure softly asleep
                                       I see hidden
                                   in the Janet I know
                                             a Soul in slumber
                                       of Brilliant Glow.

         Please do awaken
                to the Soul you are
                        and shine as the Truth
                                     I see from afar.

         For Deep in your Being
                   the Being I know from within
                                is hidden the Pleasure
                                           of God and its Kin.

               And once in Ages
                   that are gone since when
                               we loved and loved
                                      for we were then.

         For I silently remember
                    our saddening Goodbye
                         and our wondering Questions...
                                             of why... oh why.

                     -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              19420-1982






                             IN GOD'S EYE
                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Golden Hearted
                     Good and True
                               Oozing Love.

                                       That's you... yes you.

               Living Life
                    is self-surrender
                                being you
                                    with softness tender
                         bringing Joy
                                with Words and Glance
                                           taking Spirits
                                                 for a Dance.

         Where did I see
                       these Eyes so True...
               where did I meet the God that's you?

                       Where have I been
                                    to know your Soul
                             to recognize that you are Whole?

               Where will I go
                       to find again...
                                what will I do
                                        and when... and when?

               Sakae...
                     Sakae...
                           You are a Pleasure...
                                           in God's Eye!

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                              19421-1982






                            THE WAY YOU ARE
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Tingling
              Laughing
                   and Bubbling Life.

                           Hope...
                               you count
                                    at least for Five.

                   And way beyond
                           the Smiles I see
                                   you know the Depth
                                           that sets you free.

         So be yourself
                 in the 'here and now'.

                     For you do know
                                the 'why and how'.

                     And never...
                             ever...
                               in time of strife...
                                     forget
                                         you are...
                                             the Gift of Life.

         So bring to Man
                your pleasant Gleam.
                           For All of Us...
                                   are but One Team.

                Please shine forth
                        my Brilliant Star...
                               with Light and Warmth
                                             the Way You Are.

                     -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                              19422-1982






                      GOD EMBODIED... CALLED MAN
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

            Each Human Being
                   is the Embodiment
                             of God on Earth.

                   So the Life you live...
                             you live as God on Earth.

                                                  So BE God.

                   BE what you are...
                            to the Fullest.
                                       At all times.

            Never look back...
                         don't look ahead...
                                    but BE what you are NOW.

            For the Moment of Nowness
                       is the TIME and TEACHER of your Life.

               Telling you
                    that there is
                         neither a Specific...
                              nor a Common Way...
                                   to BE what you are.

            Just BE what you are... your Way.
                                    And live Life...
                                            as God Embodied.

                       For that's what you are.

                         God Embodied...
                                   called Man.

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                              19423-1982






                      AND BURDEN ME WITH FULLNESS
                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Sometimes... when I think of You
                                         I cry
                                  because of Happiness.

              For I feel then
                        that there is no Separation
                                          between You and I.

              And neither is there a Separation
                                   between You and I
                                                 and
                                           the World of Man.

         In these Moments...
                     I feel to be ME
                               to the Fullest.

         And yet I know...
                    that I am not 'empty' enough
                         to receive the Fullness of God
                                             to the Fullest.
         But for NOW
              I am pervaded by the Feeling of Fullness
                                         to the Limit I may.

              And All I am... and am not
                                      disappears
                             beyond that what I feel within.

              And All this happens...
                       because I think of You...
                                         The Love I am.

              Thus my Love...
                       please stay forever...
                                and burden Me with Fullness.

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                              19424-1982






                          AND MAKES US WHOLE
                          ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          Beyond the Words I cannot find
                   I see her Face so Soft and Kind.

               I feel her Sphere... her Touch of Living
                       I sense her Soul... her Gift of Giving.

          I see her Being
                   in God Divine.

                                    I see her Life
                                              by knowing mine.

               While Deeper yet
                         than Words or Mind

                     I see the SELF...
                                that's her in Kind.

                           The SELF that lives
                                          in Man Alone.
                           The SELF that is
                                        by Man unknown.

          But yet is felt...
                   beyond our Sense.

                               Forever there without Pretense.

                         Forever there in Heart and Soul.

                   The LOVE that IS...
                                  and makes US Whole.

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                               19425-1982






                               I AM BUT ME
                               ~~~~~~~~~~~

          What I am...
                    is 'that'
                             what I am aware of as ME.

                    My Awareness however is limited...
                                                 and so am I.

                         In actuality however...
                                      I AM UNLIMITED.

          But the Ideas I have...
                        about myself...
                 or the selfness I seem to be
                                        to myself
                                        is in actuality
                                              what limits me.

          To become...
               what I really am...
                         I must lose my selfness.

                         How to do that...
                                is what I am learning...
                                      by being me...
                                                 the limited.

          When I finally have learned completely...
               that my selfness is useless to me...
                       I will be ready to accept...
                                            what I really am.

                                   UNLIMITEDNESS.

                        But for now...
                                   I am but me.

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                              19426-1983






                              WITH ME ALONE
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Sometimes... I am so full of good Feelings
                                     that I try to share them.

               The Sharing I'm trying to do
                                  gets me into odd situations.

                        For what I want to share
                                       are my Thoughts.

               But when I speak...
                   people look at me as if I'm crazy.
                       However...
                           they regard me with tolerance.

                                   The tolerance of endurance.

           Many people just feel ill at ease by what I say.

         For what I say...
                   is not within their Thinking Range.

                   My Thinking Range...
                                 they regard as crazy.

                   What I say touches them
                              within the Range of the Unknown.

                              The Range of Godness.
                                          And to them...
                                                  God is Fear.

         Sooner or later
              they will find the Range of Godness
                         to be... the Range of Feelings.
                                                    Like I do.

         In the mean time...
                  I share the Fullness of Me... with Me alone.

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                              19427-1982






                            IS SERVING GOD
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    What the usual man calls 'Luck'... the holy man calls 'Grace'.
              And while the usual man 'thinks'
                              that he lives his own Life
                     the holy man 'knows' that he is lived by God.

    Both the usual man with his 'Luck'...
                 and the holy man with his 'Grace'...
                                   are Aspects of The Play of God.

    The usual man and the holy man are 'actions' of God
         and both 'actions' are equally valid in this Cosmic-Play.

    Since God is The Perfect-Divine-Radiant-Force
              within all Space-Time-Matter-Worlds
              and within the Universe of Consciousness
                     the Universe is exactly as it should be.
                                                     At all times.

    Life... in whatever Matter-Form or Spiritual-State
                          is a Modification of this Radiant-Force.
    To Know this is to realize the Insignificance
                                          of Individual Existence.

    But yet....
        Individual Existence in whatever Form or State
              is essential to make up the Universe as it is.
                       All Beings in Total  form  The play of God.

    The Play of God then... is the action of all Beings
                that are manifested
                in forever higher Degrees of Awareness
                      and live Life as God in an Individual State.

    To live Life in an Individual State as a Modification of God
                  in service of the Universe...
                           by either 'Luck' or 'Grace'...
                                                   is serving God.

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                              19428-1982






                           THE MIRACLE I AM
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

          The Whole Universe...
                         High and Low...
                                Far and Near...
                         in Greatness and in Smallness
                                                  is a MIRACLE.

          And I... I am the One...
                  to witness this Miracle.

                        And if it was not for ME
                                 there would be Nobody.

                                        There would be Nothing.

               For since I am.
                      The Miracle IS.

                                Everybody IS.
                       And All that is not Everybody.

          While ALL THAT IS...
                         together
                              constitutes
                                   the Magnificent Cosmos.
                                             Known and Unknown.
          Containing in Splendor
                     All Planes... All Space-Time-Worlds
                             and All Beings... Great and Small.

               Arising out of...
                           'THE DIVINE MAGICIAN'
                                          People call God.

          As it was... as it is...
                     and as it will be...
                                     forever and ever.

                              To be witnessed by...
                                              The Miracle I Am.

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                              19429-1982






                       GREATER THAN YOUR GODNESS
                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         Everybody is an Instrument
                      of The Infinite Force...
                                          called God.

                 This Infinite Force...
                             is the ONE and ONLY
                                         that lives us
                                              and pervades us.

                              Yet always...
                                     IT is itself.

         And the Fact that you or I
                 pretend to be somebody...
                               is just as crazy
                         as that you or I pretend to be
                                             Abraham or Moses.
                            For none of us is anybody.

         All of us are The Infinite Force...
                           that lives us and pervades us.

                 And anybody who thinks to be
                                          - somebody -
                                   is conditioned and deluded
                                       by his own thoughts.

         To come to the above realization
                 is the result of seeing through...
                            the Illusion of Personal Identity.

            For All of Us are...
                      The ONE and ONLY Infinite Force
                                                   called God.

            And if you think differently...
                      your personal Identity or Ego...
                                 is greater than your Godness.

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                              19430-1982






                            WHAT GOD IS NOT
                            ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         God is not something you can think about.
                For God is 'that'... what enables you to think.

               God then is the Force...
                         out of which all Thoughts are made of.

         God then... is the Force or Essence
                   that existed prior to ALL Thoughts or Ideas.

                   God is something...
                                  you can never think of.

                   For as soon as you think...
                            you have modified or altered...
                                   what God is...
                                             into an Idea.
                                                     Your Idea.
         God then is the Unknowable.
                 God is the Unknowable-Divine-Force.
                         And All That Exists...
                                has arisen out of THAT
                                                   what God is.

         God then is the Source...
                           of All That Exists.
                   And All That Exists...
                           is a Modification or Product of God.
      All Modifications or Products of God
                 are Manifestations of God by means of Thought.

                 For ALL Manifestations of God
                                     have come about
                               by the Processes of Thought
                                     that work upon...
                                                      THAT
                                                   what God is.

                      And are... WHAT GOD IS NOT.

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                              19431-1982






                           FOR GOD IS CHANGE
                           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

         In many Poems...
                   and in many of my other creations
                                 that are produced by me...
               I have stated many times...
                                      that YOU are GOD.
                                             Or
                                        that I am GOD.

               This naturally is utter Nonsense...
                                            For NOBODY is GOD.

               For any 'one' particular Being...
                                          to be God
                        is the ONE and ONLY Impossibility
                                               in the Universe.

         God is a Force... by whatever name...
                   out of which... ALL has arisen.

                   And not any ONE Thing or Being
                          is this Force in and by itself
                                                   in Totality.

         Yet... You or I however...
                       or ANYTHING else...
                            are as close to God
                       or could be identified as such
                                       as that we ever will be.

                Regardless of the State of Being...
                                              we are in.

         For whatever exists... is... at whatever state...
                   the Form of God...
                             in the state it is in.

                   Neither close... nor far.

                              But always changing.

                                             For God IS Change.

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                              19432-1982






                              AND KNOW IT
                              ~~~~~~~~~~~

         Mankind in all Forms... from all Galaxies...
              all Animals... Trees... Flowers... and Plants...
                     in all States of Being...
                            in the Total Creation...
                                    are the 'action'...
                                             of The Play of God.
         God is...
             the 'Infinite-Vibratory-Divine-Energy'...
                   that permeates and pervades Creation...
                       with an Unconscious Creative Feeling...
               that becomes 'Consciously Aware'...
                       in the created Individual Forms...
                                        as 'that' Consciousness.
                                             Whatever it is.

         God then...
            is the All Pervading Unconscious Creative Energy
                    that becomes 'aware' of itself...
                                                as itself
                                           within ITS Creations.

         The Human Being...
            is 'one' of these Creations.

            While all Experiences of this Human Being
                         help to awaken...
                                   the Human Consciousness
                         during its Living...
                                       prior to Total Awakening.

         Each Human Being...
                will eventually find itself...
                       on the Road to Becoming...
                                             a Greatness...
                                        as a God Individualized.

                                               And KNOW it.

                      -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-
                                19433-1982


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