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To One and All... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The poems in the following * POEMS13.HTM * file have been arranged in the order they have been written. The depth and nature of the poems therefore indicate the changes the author experienced during the time they were produced. There are more than 540 poems and the quality between the first ones and the last ones is remarkable! Many of the poems practically wrote themselves and all I had to do was sit still long enough for them to come through. At the time I was totally amazed where they all came from. Often I thought that I had become that good all of a sudden. This naturally is not so, for all I did was function as an instrument or channel of the Soul I really am. I hope that many of these poems speak to the Soul you are, and if so; they really come from you! The poems in all their "simplicity and profoundness" form a course in metaphysics just by themselves. It is possible therefore to go through them one by one, and learn more than by reading a stack of books. The poems in these files are aspects of my Higher Self and with great pleasure do I hereby dedicate them: - To the World of Man and his Infinite Endeavours - Only because of the steady performance of my Benefactors have my poems been realized. Humbly I acknowledge the great changes and growth that took place within me in the years 1979 to 1984. Sincerely yours, Gerardus Everardus Tros -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- LOVING CONSCIOUSLY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Within our Loving Consciously... within the Love we know... that is Us... by knowing Us... I am at Rest in Peace. For I know that You know Me by knowing You through loving Me. While the Honesty we are... moves within Us... and is Ourselves in Freedom... by our so Conscious Loving. Unequalled in the Life we knew. Unequalled in the Love we are. To Each Other... for Each Other... Consciously. In Peace of Knowing Us to be the Self in Loving we are and share. In the Serenity of our Closeness in being Lovers. Loving Consciously. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13277-1981 THE DREAM I AM ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ By knowing the Suffering I am... I know my Loving. While the Suffering I endure... is knowing not... her Pain. Oh how... how can I but know her Pain. So that I know her Loving. How can I but lessen... and get to know the Pain and Suffering we endure and make our Loving bloom to Fullness in Perfect Pleasure... without Pain. I can but dream... the Silent Dream... in unawareness... of her dreaming. The Dream I am. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13278-1981 DISTURB YOUR PLAN ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yes... I know. For I know me. Thus knowing You. And what You want... is really there. But You still look... but don't know where. For your Mind... that's but dividing... is not the Source... for your abiding. But to Learn in Time to hear your heart... is the Secret... and Truest Art. For Minds are Tools... and have no Clue. And but misguide... the God in You. So Search and Seek your Heart's Advice... It knows your Taste... It knows your Spice. For Hearts are God... and Minds but Man. So let no Mind... disturb your Plan. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13279-1981 BECAUSE OF IT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Oh yes... Oh yes my Love. Come and sit on the Floor. Come and sit where you always sit and feel the Peacefulness of Being. Oh yes my Love... come and sit right close to me and feel the Feelings I am. And then slowly... take my Hand and kiss it. Kiss it with the Feelings... you do feel. Kiss it with the Sphere... of Peace you feel... because of us. For the Sense of Living... and the Nature of Being my Love - is to be the Peace Within - The Peace within the Self... you are... through me. And slowly then... lean back... and feel the Universe of Love within the Beauty you are. Because of it. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13280-1981 BUT EXPRESSED SO DIFFERENTLY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Oh yes... my Love... - about Love and Lust - the Two Opposites Forever. Yet Love and Lust are One. But expressed in different Dualities. To Love... is seeing Lovingly. By making You 'The Love'... and I the Instrument... of Loving. To Lust... is seeing an Object... to satisfy Desires... is using the Object... as the Instrument. And also... seeing a Person Lovingly... is making that Person Beauty. While seeing Beauty lustfully... is making Beauty but an Object. And like You are... LOVE for the Children so am I in Sameness and Nature for You. But expressed so differently. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13281-1981 IN THE DARKNESS OF MIND ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yes my Love... to be Centered in the Heart... is to be Centered in God's Dimension. Centered in Living. While being Centered in the Mind... is but Existence. Existence by Scheming... and Divisions. Existence by Figuring... and Calculations. To become Centered in the Heart is attained by Loving... by Loving and Loving more. With a Loving Attitude... towards ALL. And a Loving Attitude is Feeling. Feeling Feelings. Which no Mind can do. And the LOVE you are... my Love... just make it more and more. You will find yourself... in God's Dimension. The Dimension... so unknown to the World of Man... in the Darkness of Mind. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13282-1981 AND THE CREATOR ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ YOU... my Love the Individual Consciousness you are are living within the Universal Mind called God. But in Actuality... God is LIVING within YOU. To understand this... to comprehend this... and doing something about it... is YOUR Task. The Task of... Living Your Life. And Life... is a - do it yourself job - for You are the Doer. The Doer in the Aloneness... of the Stupendous Greatness... of the Universe. The Universe that is God. Living Within You. Living within the Individual Consciousness... You Are. Containing... 'All That Is'. For You Are God. And The Creator. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13283-1981 NOR SENSE... NOR SEASON ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I have been writing... and writing and I am tired. Yet my Tiredness... does not make me sleep or rest. For in the Deepness of my Being so very... very Deep... are the Feelings of Care... the Feelings of Love. While you but sleep... in Peacefulness... knowing nothing hereof. What can I do... but write and write... of Feelings and Feelings... I cannot fight. For Love is Love... and needs no Reason... and neither Time... nor Sense... nor Season. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13284-1981 FOR ONE IS GOD ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ That's what it is... my Love... - Helplessness - Yes... Helplessness is Love. For loving Someone is feeling Helpless because of Loving. While Hate is the other Pole. For when Hate is there... there is always something one can do. But Love... Love is Total Helplessness. And this is the Pain of Love. The more Love... the more Pain. So by the Pain one is... one knows one's Love. Thus knowing the Lack of Godness. For being Man means... to need Love... as well as need to give Love. While being Love... is neither needing Love nor needing to give Love. For One is God. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13285-1981 FOR BEING MAN IN DARKNESS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ To give to Man a Tear of Brilliance of the Source I am. And to give to Man a Glimpse of Godness of the Gods they are. Where do I turn for help? Where do I look for Guidance? And how do I find the Way... to show them the very Selves they are... within the Brilliance of their Godness? I can but write and write in Words and Words invisible to the Eye of Man. My Brother... My Brother God. For Man IS God. But blind... for being Man in Darkness. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13286-1981 IS THEN THE LONGING ALL ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ And I but cry... because of Happiness. For the Tears welling up... from the Corners of my Eyes... are Smiles of Loving. While yet my Happiness is mingled with Pain. For the Love I am for you is so Alone in Loving. And why... oh why... do I so love alone? Where is Love's other Half... where is the Half that's loving me? In my Crying Happiness I am less than nothing... by being but Half. I am a Flute... without the Openings. I am the Snow... without the Whiteness. I am a God... without Godness. For I am a Man without Masculinity. Is that then... why I cry? Is that then... why I cry the Smiles of Loving? Is then the Longing all? -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13287-1981 IN KNOWING ME ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "I feel that I am... what I should be for you... at the Moment" Yes... these Words my Love are the Betrayal... of your Feelings. Hiding the Real You... behind a Veil woven by Thoughts and Feelings that are You so Splendidly. The You and the Love within. The Love within... You do not know... but feel is there. And so do I. For I have seen you walk. I have seen you move. And I have seen you pause... between the Movements of your Feelings. And I have felt your Touch with the Love that tells me. Yes my Love... You Are In Love. You are in Love... but cannot tell for knowing all the Love You Are. In Hiding behind the Feelings you create in knowing me. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13288-1981 WITH LETTERS OF LOVE.... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In my Poems my Love... I have emptied my Heart. And the Gaps between my Words... are the Tears of my Crying. Composing the Vibrations of my Feelings... singing and speaking from the Self I am. Expressing the Wishes and Dreams... I dream in loving you. I know that I have touched you... deeper than the Depth... of the Woman you knew you were. So profound... that whatever might happen my Love you never... ever... will forget the Music of the Soul that reached for the God within. Showing you the Beauty you are... and the Harmony between two Souls. And the Honesty of my Endeavour... from the Soul within me... is found within the Colour of my Style. Simple... yet Subtle... Touching... yet Tearing. For the Man I am my Love... is a Man in Love... loving you. Evolved to express the Love he is... from the Godness he is... yet being but a Man. So please my Love... help the Soul I am... so trying... in being the Heart you are... so deeply touched within... by a Soul... with Letters of Love.... -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13289-1981 MAN AND WOMAN ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Soul I am... is searching for its Completeness. For the Being I am... is but Half. Lacking Godness. Lacking You. And to find the Half... that's missing I need the Smiles of Pleasantness shared within the Music of Closeness through the Loving I feel in the Warmth of Soul of the Woman I know and knows me in Lacking Godness. While what is lacking within me is the Need to Share - what I am - with the Lacking Half I seek. To complete Each Other into the Ecstasies of Beingness of Godness Completed in Harmony. Within the Universe we are... and create by being the Shares... we need to find in sharing... MAN AND WOMAN. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13290-1981 JUST LOST CONTROL ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ She changes Love... in Torturing Pain. For her Tinge in Coolness... has gone Insane. She has no Time for Love to be... in being the Sharpest Knife... cutting and cutting... my very Life. She is no Mother... neither Woman... nor Girl... for she rejects the finest Pearl. A Pearl in Poetry... to the World unknown. How could she be Human... or even Clone? For who could be... but just a Friend to the Poet's Poet... in full Ascent? Well... I'll be damned... for I know so well. She but pretends... and lies like Hell. For in the Deepness of her very Soul the God that is... just lost Control. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13291-1981 A GOD ASLEEP ~~~~~~~~~~~~ With the Wisdom of Ages hidden behind Smiling Eyes... SHE IS. Ignorant of her true Worthiness. Knowing not her Value in Being. Sunshine reflecting from her Face... tells me... that she is Beautiful... in Inner Beingness and Soul. I stop and talk. Yes... I have known her before. Some many million Moons ago... when we were Lovers. Knowing Love of Bodies... Love of Minds and the Love of Souls in Deepness. However... now... in being but Wise in Girlhood... I surprise her. In touching her Inner Self... by Words of Godness unknown to her Conscious Mind. She knows them by Heart... but by Mind... she rejects them. Slowly though... she will remember... in the Weeks and Years to come... the Very Self she is. A God Asleep. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13292-1981 I HAVE TO FINISH HERE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am in this World... so strangely. For I am... and am not... really on it. And certainly not of it. And yet there... where I really belong... I don't find myself. For I am here upon a World that is not mine. Where is it then... that I belong? So often I feel this World but to be a Place where I go... and dream. Dream that I am dreaming of Worlds and Universes where I am from. And dream... that it is there... I really belong. And am in full Awareness... of Dreams... I have to finish here. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13293-1981 WHAT LOVE REALLY IS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Tell me then... what is Love? The Love I feel for Women... the Love I feel for Men. LOVE... my Child... Love is the Quality... one feels... called Godness. So difficult to be found within the other Gender. Some of it is there but most of it is missing. While in the Search for Love within Partners and within the Love we do find... we more and more wonder... where it went or whether it was there at all. For Godness... we do not find... to Satisfaction within One Another. For the Love to be found is Total Godness. Which is within the Self... so searching outside of it. This is the Love... that will only be encountered... by loving God. Living in Total within the Soul... the God Within. And the God Within... is the Self within ALL Others... and ALL Others within the Self. While the more and more we love... the God within ALL... the more and more we discover... WHAT LOVE REALLY IS. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13294-1981 WHICH IS LOVE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In loving One's Self... One loves the World... and the World of Man. For the Love for ALL... is the Love of Self. For One is ALL. And the Love of One's Self is the Summation of the Feelings One is. Developed by the Attitude adopted... by living Lives as Man... and the Experiences encountered. Each Human Being... is a Soul in Flesh. A Soul in Hiding. And ready to return... when finished Loving... All That Is. All the Living and Loving is culminated within the Wisdom of the Soul. And is equal to Godness... in Individuality and Selfness... in Being. Constituting Knowing Oneness Within. Which is LOVE. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13295-1981 AND GOD ITSELF ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Oh yes... my Friends... to get to know... what we do not know as yet... is possible. You have to agonize the Inner Mind. You have to contact the Mental Being... the Soul. And if it is good for you... to know what you don't know as yet... your Soul will let you know. Your Soul knows more than you do. For it is an Aspect of the ALL Knower... The Universal Mind. To agonize the Inner Mind... is the awakening of the Self to the Wisdom of the Soul. All of us have to be awakened... for we are fast asleep in the World of Matter. We have to dehypnotize ourselves to the Inner Reality of Our True Self. This is the Task of Man. Once we are awakened... we become the Beauty of the Universe of Consciousness. The Universal Mind. Which is OUR Mind. And God Itself. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13296-1981 BY WHAT I AM NOT YET ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Space-Being I am is confused. For the Space Within... is rambling the Raider enclosing it. Yet there is nothing to fight... but Nothingness. The empty Nothingness longing... for what is not there as yet. What is it... I fight... that is not there? Is it the Me I am not? Is it the Me I will yet be? Whatever it is... it is untouchable by Hands or Mind. But it is there by Feeling. Subtle in Substance of Feeling. Solid in Substance of Ignorance. It is... being a Space-Being... full of Empty Space Within... and seeking. Seeking... and to be filled... by what I am not yet. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13297-1981 WITHIN ONE WHOLE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In this Galaxy we know as Milky the Race of Man is Young and Cute And in the Growing we encounter we fumble struggling in Self-Dispute While Man to Man in the Plane of Separation All in All are really Oneness-Absolute Which cannot be found in Weapons but in the Harmony of Self-Salute. But to learn of Life by Living-Lessons is a Process of a Billion Moons To be experienced in bitter Dosage by the Taste of Self-Made Spoons For as of yet at this very Present too many Man are still Baboons But steady climbing and a Soaring to Heights-Unknown in God's Cocoons. And with the Multitude of Beings in our Galaxy the Milky Way We ALL in ALL are Cosmic-Sameness and Souls encaptured in but Clay. While Each of All... in Fragment-Soul is ONE in TOTAL... within ONE WHOLE. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13298-1981 OF 'ALL THAT IS' ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ To be aware of what Humanness entails... is to be One of Them. While all the Rest... is but MAN. To Be Human is to Live it. And Love it. To be Human is to Understand and Know... Your Destiny Your Goal Your Multi-Dimensionality Your Unlimitedness Your Soulness within God Your Totality... as a Cosmic Being. To understand this in full awareness of knowing is to be Human. You realize then that the Soul you are is the Force that Lives... Steers and Directs your Physical Form. And eventually... the Total You will be united with the Entity you are an Aspect of. Within all the Splendor... of ALL THAT IS. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13299-1981 BY NOT THINKING ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ What Man really is... He does not know. What Man really is... is hidden deep within. And since he does not know his Inner Self he is held back... to what he but is. A Struggling Man. Man's Ignorance... and his Conditioned Mind... is holding him back. To let go... of his Conditioned Mind he fears. He fears it like Death. While Death... is the Impossible Concept. For Death is Not. There is only Life. There is only Godness. For Man to let go of his Fears will take many and many Years of Courage. The Instillment of Fear... is Ages and Ages old. And Hell itself. The Hell... Man created himself. By being Conditioned... to the Limit he is. By not thinking. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 13300-1981