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To One and All... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The poems in the following * POEMS08.HTM * file have been arranged in the order they have been written. The depth and nature of the poems therefore indicate the changes the author experienced during the time they were produced. There are more than 540 poems and the quality between the first ones and the last ones is remarkable! Many of the poems practically wrote themselves and all I had to do was sit still long enough for them to come through. At the time I was totally amazed where they all came from. Often I thought that I had become that good all of a sudden. This naturally is not so, for all I did was function as an instrument or channel of the Soul I really am. I hope that many of these poems speak to the Soul you are, and if so; they really come from you! The poems in all their "simplicity and profoundness" form a course in metaphysics just by themselves. It is possible therefore to go through them one by one, and learn more than by reading a stack of books. The poems in these files are aspects of my Higher Self and with great pleasure do I hereby dedicate them: - To the World of Man and his Infinite Endeavours - Only because of the steady performance of my Benefactors have my poems been realized. Humbly I acknowledge the great changes and growth that took place within me in the years 1979 to 1984. Sincerely yours, Gerardus Everardus Tros -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- I BUT FEEL MY SMALLNESS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ It is not in the manner... of my Writing Neither is it in the Stillness... of my Style It is not in the Selection... of my Phrases And neither is it... in the Quality of my Words. It is not in the Loudness... of the Thunder Neither is it in the Darkness... of the Night It is not in the Quickness... of the Lightning And neither is it... in the Twinkling of the Stars. It is not in the Rumbling... of the Earthquakes Neither is it in the Blueness of the Sky It is not in the Deepness... of the Ocean And neither is it... in the Beauty of the Land. But All Of It... is within the Inner of my Being connecting my Consciousness to the God within. The God within... that speaks in Silent Syllables of Silence. And reveals... The All Of It within the Reality I am. In Such a Sense of Greatness... that I but feel my Smallness. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08157-1980 THE REALITY I AM ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The way I am now... is the way you will be... similar but different... in times that will yet come. And the way I am now... is on the Earth... but so little of it. I have fought the Material and have let it go. I have fought the Direction and it came to me. While the Fight... between the ME I will yet be and the me I still am is the Fight between God and Flesh. To be conquered... by the I... in times that will yet come. For that is... the way I am. And the Way I will be in times that will yet come is of an Essence that is beyond the Earth beyond what I am now. In the Plane on Consciousness. The Plane that will strenghten me toward the Unlimited Regions of Open-Endedness. That knows no Limits... but ME. That is the Way I am... A Soul... dividing Flesh from Consciousness. To find... the REALITY I AM. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08158-1980 IN DISCONTENT DIVINE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I... the Silent Sufferer... suffering from this Discontent Divine know that my Soul is Jubilant. For... by the Struggles and the Strife of living in Discontent Divine of its Puppets of which I am but one my Soul is touching the very Beingness of God in Happiness. And climbing... forever higher and higher... upon the Laurels of my Pain and the Efforts of my Partners who are but me for time. For this Jubilant Soul in Happiness we suffer but in Pleasure the Lives and Living in this Hell called Earth. This Earth... the very Plane of Man... the Silent Sufferer... in Discontent Divine. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08159-1980 IMMORTALITY DIVINE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ To live dangerously... to live by the Courage of Inner Persuasion To live without Fright to live Recklessly by Inner Spirituality... - That is The Way To Live - But to live normal to live like the many others is but to live like others in a useless repeating Fashion. To live... without ever knowing... the Reality of Being To live... without ever knowing the Spirit because of Flesh is but Dreariness... repeated. But to live dangerously... and frightless upon the Path of Reality with Spiritual Confidence and complete Conviction of being what you are Part of God... and Deathless... - That Is The Way To Live - For conforming... is dying repeatedly. While the dangerously frightless Life of the Single Spirit will find Liberty... in Ultimate Freedom... and Immortality Divine. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08160-1980 WITHIN THE SAMENESS OF US ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ At one Time... in the Future far I will understand. For within me... born out of the Desire to Know is the Dynamic Force called Purpose. And the Understanding I seek... will be Mine. For the Life I am... is Continuous. In different Forms... on different Levels within Space-Time... and without. But always ME. For the Space-Time... I live in now is but Consciousness in Mode but of an Essence... the same as I. While the Movements I am within Space-Time and without are but the Days and Nights of the Eternity I am. In alternate States of Consciousness and Continuity. And at one time... is the Future far... I will understand. And look back... upon the Modes of Consciousness of Space-Time and I and know that we were ONE within the Essence of Mind. But lost each other... in but a Moment of Separation... within the Sameness of Us. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08161-1980 IN THE CLOSENESS OF ONE MIND ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ At Night... when I look into Mind... I find the Stars. The Markers... of the Expanding Universal Mind of Immensity. And the Immensity of Me. For ALL is ONE. For Space... is but Thoughts of Mind filled with Stars to show the Endlessness of Mind. Born from Thoughts... of the Eternal ALL. Sharing Thought for Thought with Me in the Closeness of one Mind. While the Eternal ALL and I expand in Consciousness by the Thoughts... of Stars expanding. To mark our Space with Endless Markers. For Space... Time... Stars... and I and the Eternal ALL are but Thoughts in Mind of All That Is in Unison of Consciousness. And nothing ever will be lost... for All is Present... within the Mind of Minds. Sharing Thought for Thought with Me in the Closeness of one Mind. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08162-1980 THAT'S ME ~~~~~~~~~ How come I knew... and didn't know... The Path is me... by me. How come I knew.. and didn't know The Path is me... through me. How come I knew... and didn't know The Path is me... as me. It is because... in all the Lives that past I've grown the Light at last. And by the Lives... in ages free I've grown the God... that's ME. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08163-1980 AS GOD AND MAN ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yes... I will split this Earth and its so stinging pull For I have seen the Truth of Life and know the bloody Fool That in Insanity by Spells of Skin and Bones and Mud Is but the dullest of Desires and the pleasures of a Dud. For I.... the SELF forever am in Presence beyond this seeming Place And do not have existence... in only... Time and Space. But forever am in Presence of All That Is I am To live and be... as Time and Space and both... as God and Man. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08164-1980 NOT REALLY REAL ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am healthy... I am good and I behave just like I should I am the Creator of Life to be in Modes of Mind from Light that's me For by my Thoughts from deep within I create the Self... the Mental Twin So in my Forms in Space and Time I am both Self and God Sublime And not one Force that is not me can ever change the God to be For my Eternal Living Light directs my Being... directs by Sight Upon the Path that's yet unknown to be sojourned by me alone In carrying forth this Matter Cross that I create by Mental Dross Until the time this Conscious me surrenders to the Twin that's free To find that I the Self and All are Cosmic Light beyond enthrall While all my Forms in Beingness were but the Modes of Consciousness but States of Mind that so appeal but Dreams of Life... not really Real. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08165-1980 THE COSMIC MIND ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ When I have found... the Delight of Being to be my Total Self. The Depth of my Dream will be touching the Inner Worth of my Soul I will be free then of the Confinement of my Body and rise to the Level of Consciousness marked by the experiences of the God I am within the Cosmic Mind. And the Markings... will be in Richness and Splendor of Understanding. Then I will know that the Self I experienced is ALL that ever was. While the Experiences were but the Illusions of my Mind. Depicting the Limitations of my Awareness. The Limitations of the Self in training to become... the God I am. The God that was hiding beyond Eternity in Time I fashioned to be. Because of my Limitations. The Limitations that I will conquer to become the ALL that ever was. The ALL... that's me... the Cosmic Mind. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08166-1980 WHERE LEAST EXPECTED ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I know a better place... than Earth. And it is there... where least expected. For it is but hidden beyond the Focus of the Physical within a State of Mind in which I am and feel. And within an Instant of Time I could be there if I but knew the Mind I am. But to really know the Mind I am I need to know the God I am. The God that is lost... within its Creation of Matter. And I but measure... in Dimensions of Size by my Conscious Mind in seemingly Separateness of Time and Space. While both Time and Space are Aspects of the Cosmic Mind. The Mind focussed in Realities in which I am not present as yet. But know to be there... where least expected. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08167-1980 AND NOT THE FLESH ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I... the Idiot who does not know am but a Shock... and Mental Blow to Minds that think that they alone are Knowers of their World that's sown the Evil and the Pestilence combined in War and Violence. For I do say... and say again that I create since Time... since when the World in which I live and die... and am the one who does not cry... let's fight and kill this Enemy and show them Right and Scenery of Life that we in Pain have wrought by Deeds and Stain by taking Land and silly Mud to bury but our Body-Dud. To find that at our next return a Body waits that must yet learn that Violence for whatever cause provides but Tears without a Pause. For even in what's Self-Defence one may not kill at Soul's Expense. For the Lasting Mind of Consciousness is the ONE that counts and not the Flesh. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08168-1980 THE GOD FEMALE SUBLIME ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sometimes I find you Delightful and sometimes I think you are not Sometimes I think you're Graceful while often you are but a Plot. In the Daytime I think you are sexy and at Night I find you insane In the Evening I see you as Beautiful while in the Morning... you're too plain. And sometimes I think you're Elegant for your Movements are Neatness in line While often I find you too Adamant and yet your yielding is purely Divine. But at all times... you are the Enticing like a Promise elusive in Time Creating Rhythm too lively for soothing by being... the God Female Sublime. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08169-1980 IN THE SILENCE OF KNOWING ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I do not want you to Love... I do not want you to Cry I but want you to Understand. For Understanding is the 'essence' of Living. While Living is to Love and Cry... but neither is to be done alone. And that my Dearest... is what Life is all about. Life is a Struggle. A Struggle between Pleasure and Sadness between Love and Denial between what is and what cannot be. But through the Loving and the Crying... called Living we grow and become Mature. And Maturity can only be attained by Experience the Experience of being together... and alone. With the Pleasures of Loving... and the Sadness of Separation. All we do is Experience. While all Experience is Growing to Maturity. To finally become Strong... and Fearless by the Life we live. And by the times we meet in the Silence of Knowing. So... in the Days ahead... we live... we love... we cry... together and alone... to mature and become... Beautiful People. Strong and Fearless... through experiencing ourselves... in being... The Beautiful We Are. By Loving... with the Inner Smile of Understanding. Like Flowers and Trees united in Nature... by togetherness and in the Silence of Knowing. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08170-1980 OUR BREAD AND WINE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the Eons and Eons of Man in need his Eyes and Thoughts went up to plead. Knowing not... that HE... by his Total Self was the GOD and CREATOR... yes HE himself. So in all the Eons he moaned the Sky the Truth of Man just passed him by. For in all his Acts... for food and drink he called on Darkness and did not think. And in his Delusion of different skin he did not see their Godness within. While in his Pain of War and Might his Selfness but bled... his Godly Light. But in this Aquarian New Age Design Man's Mind and Planets are to align. And he will know... that his Self... so odd is the very Creator and the only God. For Man... this Creature of Eons old is the true Designer and Builder bold. For his Worlds and Stars are made in Mind by his hidden Thoughts... the silent kind. Flowing forth forever... from his Mental Twin from this Human God... the Creator within. But now... that Man has found his Source his Inner God will direct his Course. Embracing Brothers from Time and Space for Consciousness is of ONE Race. And through our Cosmic Mind Divine we move... and share our Bread and Wine. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08171-1980 AND DON'T KNOW WHY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We do not really want our Loving and should but be as Friend to Friend For all the Sadness we slowly gather will be too Painful in the End. But yet our daring Love in hunger creating Thoughts we cannot still Is far too far from neutral Feelings to be denied in spite of Will. And in the times we meet in Silence hiding the Words beyond our Thought We but live in little moments that our togetherness has wrought. For the so lovely State of Loving and the Pleasure we both do share Cannot deny the State of Knowing that both of us should never care. Yet... in the Touching of our Being we softly tremble... so deep inside To touch again.. with Silent Knowing the Feelings both of us can't hide. While the Advice from Inner Sources keep steady telling us to Self-Deny Yet... we obey the Secret Voices that Lovers love.... and don't know why. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08172-1980 HIS TASTE AND DAILY CREED ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If I could 'poet' at lightning speed it would be useless and without need for the reader's eye cannot exceed what his mind could grasp in greed. But even adopting to the Human Breed with the steady pace of a centipede is still too fast to get him keyed for poet's thoughts he doesn't need. For in all the lines that I do feed he sees but words and not the heed. And all he swallows... indeed... indeed is worldly weed and not the seed. I wonder if I would succeed if I wrote poems of sex and greed with boobs galore and super-steed to suit his taste and daily creed? -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08173-1980 AND TO NEVER DIE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Teacher of Man... the Greatest of All started his Glory when born in a Stall And when he was little... his Wisdom Divine silenced the Learned of Temple and Shrine With Words of Mansions and Paradise Earth of Truth Eternal... within Man from Birth Engraved in Silence... hidden in Soul to be followed by living... making us Whole For the Truth of his Words... older than Time is the Secret of Life... by Spirit Sublime. For the Knowing of Ages... through living Life is stored in Soul by the Struggle and Strife That we daily encounter on the Path of Ascend to follow the way of the Master and Friend. For he who came... to show us his Way was teaching us Man... by Love-Portray. And we who follow the Path of the Cross do need his Guidance to gain our Loss In the Valley of Self... on the Ridges of I to join him in Time... and to never die. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08174-1980 ALWAYS ~~~~~~ Since I know... that there is nothing I can learn from what there is outside of me. I dwell inside... and learn ALL. For in the Silence... of my Inner Being I find the Light that's living. Life itself... by Knowing. While ALL that I ever get to know... is nothing more and nothing less than ME. THE KNOWER. And while I the KNOWER live Life in whatever Form or Being in whatever Plane or Level I am That what I know. Nothing MORE... nothing LESS. ALWAYS. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08175-1980 IN SELFISH NEED ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I write and write... and who does care? Another Writer... here or there? A Writer who does not really need... the Thoughts I feel and need. For he himself... in tip top shape knows that writers can't escape... the Silent Thoughts that tumble down to be dressed up in Suit or Gown. For the one who writes... is in the know... that tumbling Thoughts are pure as Snow and softly fall... from who knows where to be expressed by Words that Care. So this is.... why just him and I but write and write... and don't know why. For the Masses never touch a Poem or Book or neither even care to look. For Words to them are all the same beyond their Mind... beyond their Aim. And all they do with eager Greed is be a Body in selfish Need. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08176-1980 AND OURSELVES ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I my Friends... I'm only here to learn. And what is Valuable to me... indeed might be Useless to you. But it is wrong to think... that somebody knows it all and somebody else is ignorant. For All of Us are here to learn. While None of Us will ever learn anything when we keep rejecting each other because we have different views. For to keep rejecting each other denies us the opportunity to learn from each other. And the Learning we have to do... is... to learn from each other. For 'that' is... the only thing there is to learn. While All of Us... at all times... are the Student and the Teacher. Hiding within ourselves... to find the Truth. Waiting to be found... by teaching and learning from each other. And Ourselves. -=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=-=+=- 08177-1980